3 Docuseries you should watch

(If at any time you referred to yourself as a Christian)

Religion has become an (even more so) ultra-sensitive and polarising topic of late, and there are several documentaries and podcasts about mega-churches and popular Christian personalities. As a person who grew up in the Christian subculture and has spent time examining1 my faith, I find these documentaries important to how I define my beliefs, even if I never attended Mars Hill or watched the Duggars when they were on TV. It’s not about judging the content of the documentary, instead, it’s about looking at how the rest of the world perceives Christianity, and whether it is seen through a clear or twisted lens. I don’t think that we’re meant to run PR for Jesus, nor are we meant to be marketers for faith, but if we are representative of what it means to be a Christian, and all the world sees is hate and control, then we are failing at representation, and I want to be a good representation of what it means to have faith.

Keep Sweet: Pray and Obey on Netflix exposes the polygamous fundamentalist Latter-Day Saints organization led by Warren Jeffs (and previously run by his father). This is extremely heartbreaking to watch as it shows just how abusive the organization was, especially towards women2 and children. It’s a four-part series and all episodes are under an hour.

This one was interesting to me because it’s easy to look at it and think, “Wow, I would never fall into a cult like that” but it doesn’t start out so radically all the time, sometimes it sneaks up on you, which leads me to the next one…

When I watched Shiny Happy People on Amazon I felt a sense of relief that I never got into watching the Duggars. I know that the documentary didn’t go into a lot of things, or expound fully on some of the issues they raised, however, there was enough there that will leave you aghast. The ideologies, the way they broke the spirits of their children and indoctrinated them, the whole idea of the Joshua Generation, all of it was both wild and absolutely horrifying.

It’s so easy to put a man above God, I’ve seen it so many times – churches break up and people walk away from the faith when a leader is caught doing something they shouldn’t, because that leader was the focus. I’m not saying that the people who walked away are in the wrong here, no, they were in a situation where they were taught to give reverence to a person and that person took advantage of them, and it happens so much that it’s surprising that there aren’t more of these documentaries. I know many people who admired the Duggars and wished their family was like them because they saw a narrative on television but not the dark side behind the scenes, and I know enough people who had similar family experiences. The fact is this one is so easy to fall into if you’re not careful because it starts in the family and it starts when you are young. This is why I think it’s important to examine your faith and the things you hear from the stage and at home.

Up next we have Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed currently on Max. I love Hillsong worship – Darlene Zschech, Marty Smith, Brooke (Fraser) Ligertwood, these people wrote and performed some of my most beloved worship music. The first songbook I purchased (for piano) was the Hillsong United King of Majesty book. I have led worship and used Hillsong music in my setlist. I would claim that Hillsong Music is the vehicle that rocketed Hillsong into popularity. Yet, they aren’t above scandal and the documentary goes into the corruption in leadership and the way that affected the organization in Australia and around the world. There are several documentaries and a podcast on this issue, and honestly, I’m not very surprised but it does make me sad, especially given my close connection with their music.

Then there’s the question of, given the scandals should we still use their music, there are compelling pros and cons for this but I land on a yes for now3.

One of the biggest themes running through these documentaries is the lack of accountability and transparency. I am suspicious of any non-profit organization that is not transparent in its mission, the way it uses its funding, or how accountability works in leadership. I don’t know if this is the only answer, but I do know that when leaders have no accountability the people they lead suffer. For myself, I try to seek out organizations that show some level of accountability and transparency, and when I think about churches, I try to find those that are social justice-minded and don’t have strange rules4. If you have seen any of these docuseries, I’d love to hear your thoughts5!

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1. People may call it deconstructing but I think it’s important that we are continually examining what we believe and why.
2. There’s a theme here.
3. This is a whole other post, but the long and short of it is that I think that any art, once out in the world, is left to the interpretation of the viewer/reader/listener.
4. One day I’ll be brave enough to talk about my thoughts on purity culture.
5. Find me on socials if the comment section is iffy.

“Be on your guard against false prophets who come to you in sheep’s clothing but inwardly are ravaging wolves.

Matthew 7:15; Bible

Searching ABCs

Do you have a favourite browser? Mine is Chrome. I’ve been using it since Google released it. I love the search bar, it makes life so much easier. Just type in a letter autofill to a site you’ve recently visited or have visited often.

Two years ago I started an experiment, how would my searches/sites I visit, change over time?

Below is that table, I typed in a letter and chose the first thing Chrome served me back. It’s quite interesting – at least to me!

2014 2015 2016
Amazon AMC Theaters app.box.com
Bike to Work Challenge Box.com Book of the Month
Google Calendar Google Calendar Google Calendar
Google Drive Google Drive – KEEP Dropbox
ESP website (work) Google Docs Evite
Facebook Facebook Facebook
Gmail Gmail Gmail
Sosh HBO Go Hamilton Lottery Ticket
Intranet Instagram Instagram/IReadYa
My Fitness Pal Join.me Jetblue
Google Keep Google Keep Google Keep
Linked In New Life Hub Lit-Cube
Yahoo Yahoo Yahoo
Jazz Fest NetFlix Google News
Orbitx Outlook Outlook
Padmapper PayPal ProPublica
Work QA site Work QA site Work QA site
Redemption Center Blog Goodreads Relevant Magazine
Scholastic Store Planning Center Scholastic Store
Google Translate Twitter Twitter/shanella
Goodreads UPS UCH
Google Voice Virutal Piano Vocabulary.com
Weather.com WordPress Weather.com
XKCD Hulu XKCD
Yelp Youtube Youtube
Ziegfeld theater Zara Zillow

Starting with the As, it seems that I moved from browsing Amazon (still do) to browsing movies and movie times to learning music for my choir/orchestra group – starting in 2015, note the B line. Speaking of Bs, it seems I went from Biking to Singing to Reading – three of my favourite pastimes.

C & D show my love for Google and all its tools; from the Calendar to the Google Voice (2014 the year I actually went on dates with strangers) number that I created years ago.

This year a lot of people moved back to Evites – from Facebook Events.

Let’s skip over Facebook and Gmail and head straight to the fact that I still have not won Hamilton tickets, even though it’s one of my most visited sites!

There’s a lot of work related sites as well – Intranet, ESP, QA, Outlook and the Scholastic Store. But that makes sense, I do spend many hours a week there.

The Us are very interesting – there must have been a U book for that Goodreads entry in 2014. Then I went from tracking packages last year to looking at health insurance this year – thanks, conjunctivitis.

Overall, nothing too shocking for me here. I’m assuming my 2017 will be pretty close to my 2016, who knows, maybe I’ll do an addition next year.

After Sandy

I went to bed last Monday to the sound of the wind outside. Trees were bending in all directions, some almost bowed over, touching the ground with their branches. There were things banging against the side of the house and roof. The house was swaying and there were odd flashes of orange and white in the sky, but no sound of thunder.

That night, I dreamt of destruction.

On Tuesday morning, the destruction was revealed. Thankfully, we only lost a piece of siding and electricity, but the news of devastation was slowing trickling in over the cranked up radio, Long Beach was under water. No gas. No Electricity to thousands of people. Entire houses floated away with the tide. Trees cut houses in half. Cars moved like matchboxes down the street.

In the aftermath of Sandy, the death toll rose, people were left without homes, fuels, water, electricity and gas. The city that never sleeps was half blinded by darkness, forced to stop everything and recover. Manhattan was crippled.

Some are still without those things.

It’s a bit unreal what is going on. Last week involved a lot of cleanup. I spent the entire day on Tuesday getting food to family who were without food and electricity, helping to clean up the mess that the flood left behind. Sometimes I can still smell the stench of the salt water from the bay that covered three feet of their first floor.

My house regained electricity late Wednesday night. The thing though – about having electricity and not a lot of damage and only having to only worry now about a gas tank and transportation to work – I can see how easy it is to forget the hurt that some are still experiencing. Crisis reveals character, and I hope that in this crisis you saw who you want to be revealed in the things you did and said.

A lot of help is still needed, things are still not back to normal for  a lot of people. Work still needs to be done. I’m deeply touched by the stories of heroism that came out of the storm, but I’m also sad at the slim-balls that crawled out of the gutters; the people who preyed on those in trouble.

There are people who still need help, there are many ways to give of your time and money to help those in need if you can, you should definitely look into it.

The photo below is from the morning after Sandy, after the floods came and receded. I look at this photo and I see hope. We are alive, we are well, there is hope.

I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth… I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life.

Weathering the Storm

Was it just a year ago that the threat of Irene caused thousands of New Yorkers to rush to supermarkets and fill up tubs? As Sandy makes her debut I look back in wonder that a year has past by and that we find ourselves in the same situation, buying canned goods, filling up the tub with water, charging up the electronic devices…

I hope that, like Irene, Sandy will just pass us by, but there is always that small anxiety that this one might be worse than the last, that the lessons gained from the past experience will not be applicable to this current one and that all our preparations were in vain. Sometimes it’s not destruction, but the expectation of destruction that causes anxiety. Does that mean that I shouldn’t prepare? That I should just give up? These are just things I wonder.

I think preparing for things ahead is important, but I think knowing that, even with preparation, things might not turn out great is also important. In any case, be safe, smart and find a good book to read. It’s time to weather the storm.

Left/Right Confusion

I have a problem. Well, I don’t view it as a problem, but it was enough of a problem to get me into trouble!

We have these parking meters in my neighbourhood, they are a bit on the ancient side. One meter serves two spots and you need to fill it so the correct spot has the quarters needed.

After parking my car, I pressed the top of the two buttons (left) and entered my quarters inside, it ate one of my coins and I had to give it an extra quater to make the 9.5 hours I needed before 6pm. Then, I pressed the bottom (right) to make sure that I didn’t put the quarters into the incorrect section. Satisfied I took my things from the car and rushed to the train station.

When I came back that evening, I noticed a bright yellow envelope on my car. Immediately annoyed  – because I was certain I fed the meter with two extra coins! I read the ticket, it was issued at 5pm, surely something is wrong here, I was certain that I put enough coins in. Then I looked at the meter and noticed the faint arrow around the left button, it was pointing away from my car.

Apparently Left-Right Confusion is a thing, not that me knowing that it’s a thing will get me out of a ticket. Can you imagine my case? “No Judge, I just have this thing called Left-Right Confusion where I mistake my left from my right. Nothing to worry about, just a minor thing.” Yes, I really don’t think that will go over well enough. No, I think I’ll just ride my bike to the train station instead.