Do you live with apathy as your baseline only to switch tracks so quickly when someone finally captures your interest that you’re now examining every conversation and action like a post-game analyst?

Do you spend most of your life letting situations float by, and using phrases like “that’s interesting”, but your face is impassive? Are you more emotive in text than in person? When asked about your passions do you freeze, because you can’t remember the last thing that really moved you? And then do you find yourself crying at the end of a movie or show or in the middle of reading a book? Does a drawing make you weep? Can the person in front of you read your face because all of a sudden your face doesn’t know how to play poker?

Is 75% of your time spent procrastinating, until the deadline looms large, then do you bang out the best work you’ve ever done in your entire life because even though you don’t like working under pressure you really only get your best work done under pressure — or so you tell yourself so you don’t feel bad about living your life that way? Has your mother ever told you that you could probably do great work if you stopped procrastinating?

When someone tells you they like something, do you then decide that you need to do that something for that person and you do it at 110% because surely you must show them you do actually listen to the words coming out of their mouths and you appreciate them? Have you hyper-fixated on making crochet stuffed animals even though you have no children and now you’re known as the person who crochets stuffed animals in your group of crocheting friends?

Do you wonder why you spend so much time overthinking if you really are as apathetic as you claim to be? Are you me? Or do you have your life in order?

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I was thinking, over thinking… Cause there’s just too many scenarios to analyze; look in my eyes cause you’re my dream please come true.

Relient K Over Thinking